I am going to be very transparent. No one reads this but me, so I suppose I am not being as transparent as I wish to be...
Anyway, I am insanely jealous. Are you ready for this? I have a friend who is pregnant. I am jealous. I see babies at church being born to these wonderful people. I am jealous. I want to be happy for them all, but I am jealous. (Admitting this is the first step, so sorry for the redundancy.)
I have three beautiful, healthy boys and a fantastic husband who is a great father. Why can't I be satisfied? Is this desire to have another baby motivated by the fact that we can't have another one? Phillip has had surgery, so no more little Lytles from us. I have heard from other women older than I that this is normal. We are created to be fruitful and multiply, so there is a period of sadness once this is over. I am glad to know I am not alone. However, this does not excuse it.
So, forgive me, young and/or pregnant mother, when I give a little eye roll at your complaints about being tired, midnight feedings, swollen feet, and the need to urinate every few minutes. It's not you, it's me.
Maybe I can dream about it while I enjoy an uninterrupted night's sleep.
